'All you need is love’, ‘Love, love will keep us together’, ‘Where is the love?’ – that last one’s a good question…and I love that song… I think it ‘gets me’ ;P
I bang on A LOT about love and people bang on A LOT to me about LOVE, their LOVE – which is total cool - but more often than not we are banging on together about two very different things… so I would like to talk super quickly (by my standards) about the LOVE I loud hailer on to everyday
YES I am a modern day ‘hippie’ – I believe in the ying and the yang – that good and that bad in all of us, I believe we are what we see in ourselves and also that in which moves us in others (again the good and the ‘bad’)
But this thing called LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE – (I just love that word and who doesn’t) – we all deserve it, I tire very easily (sorry) of that debate, ‘ I don’t deserve it’ ‘I’ll never find it’ (and I tired of having it with myself more than anything!!)– that’s not the love I am talking about – that romantic love is just a very small cherry on the top of a whole ice cream Sunday of love…. I’d like to recall a conversation with a very dear friend from my arrival week at university at the tender age of 18 when I thought I owned the world but really had no idea…we’ll call her A for the sake of our time here:
ME: I don’t think I’ve ever been in love’
A: well that’s just not true?
ME: *puzzled faced* and in mind: how the hell do you know love you’ve only just met me?!
A: we’ll you love your parents right and they love you? So you have been loved, you have loved right from the day you stepped onto the planet cause you are love…
*STOP PRESS* .. oh..yeah….
See love to me is an umbrella – a life force, an energy that connects us to each and every other living thing – to that which is above us (and beyond us), below us (at our feet and beyond us.. deep deep down) and that which runs through us. How I ‘see it’ in my visual castle? It’s a crazy place this – I spend much time in here so I ‘ll try and paint out its vision to you in words….for me there is a spider web type thread that runs from us out into the world, (that’s the big wide world – not just our wee world – let’s not forget the scale of this bad boy!!) people walk into our web, cross it and vice versa ever day – what we send up and down that thread – well that’s of our making – our choice… you often hear about vibrations – you know, the ‘we just clicked’ ‘I’m really not vibing them’? – and that to me is how this web links us – how what others send out on a vibration from their web as it hits ours… what we omit – what we ‘catch’ from another – that can either be amazingly lifting or frantically suppressive.. you know to be a drain and radiator? It’s a life choice….
I am told OFTEN that I am very LOUD (in the morning especially), very bright, very weird, very happy – I have not always been like that – when the world felt untrusting and I was not of an understanding of ‘how things really worked’ I gave back that sense to the world, that lack and the vibration I resonated felt very, VERY different to how you’d meet me today and every interaction reflected that and the vacuum sucked and pulled until I felt quiet simply empty….
As I started to listen to life as I found light in my despair as I’ve battled with, played with, worked with energy every day I am left nothing but mind blown with its malleability…its changeability…and what shifts a ‘negative’ into a ‘positive’ for me? Well that is love and me as its vehicle, positive affliction, even in the darkest of storms.. if I charter my course home with a touch of love (strength, faith, wisdom, belief, intuition) I will always find dry land 10 times quicker than if I follow the swirl of the storm (worry, despair, distrust, ego)
That’s why I don’t believe in chance or coincidence – I know in my heart that like attracts like (and what's more from experience) – if I am radiating like a rainbow following the storm I will also appear as the pot of Gold and my life's wealth will overflow into the pockets (or hearts) of others as well as my own. If I opt to be the raincloud then I will be the lightening that strikes the life out of everything in my path that day…and leave the land barren where I’ve struck it… no.. growth...
So we have a choice – we all do – I choose LOVE… simple as that, I can’t argue it – it’s my version of a religion – kindness and love… and yes you’re right it’s not always easy choosing love – actually it’s bloody hard work – and YES life tests you and tries you and you have to show up.…stare it down and say not today, I am going hard, I am holding focus on my strength, my love of life and myself. You may not see the major results today, so shift focus and look for the small results, the small progresses – the miniatures, the blessings in disguise are often the most rewarding, the most valuable and then focus on them, the micro wins, the love (not the ego) within you and within those you meet.
SO as I will continue to ‘preach (live by) everyday (Listen in or zone out as you may – life’s a choice not a schooling!) Love hard, smash through the walls you built in fear – they don’t define you – you’re actions do and the way in which you send them out – love yourself, your friends, your family, the world and everything living or crawling within it whether it loves you back or spits in your eye (letting that anger permeate your castle, cross your moat – that’s a major no, no..) – be honest, be kind and try.. because if you don’t try, if you don’t have a go – give a wee bit of effort in glowing, you’ll never know nor will you reap the rewards of truly shinning.
with LOVE, :)